brenda I'm going to miss you :( see lah! go and listen to incorrect info about trinity and leave me alone to rot at palmerston without allowed use of portable ovens and heaters.

Being told by kind relations that I've done well just makes me feel worse. I haven't done well ENOUGH. Shit lah. So many two's, who knows, may have been one's. I don't know why I've adopted the mentality that straight a's aren't enough but my l1r5 sounds bad either way. bad bad bad. I think I've disappointed myself more than anyone else really. I'm doomed to my life of mediocrity.

freaking hell. thank god for trinity.